But that was when I had times to actually feel anything.
This new hectic schedule that was going on in my life never allowed time for that.
So what happens when it all slows down?
I'm left to face what I hadn't faced before.
My heart is broken and everything in me just wishes my sister was here.
T's gone and there's so much more I wish I could've done as her brother, but that times over and now I have to mourn and recuperate so I can jump back on my crazy schedule.
As much as I'd like for people to think I'm totally okay, I'm not. I've been drinking a lot to avoid dealing with this, but I ran out and now I'm broke.
So, what now? Now I have nothing else to turn to but God.
Dammit.
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